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"I love you and I mean it"
She blurted out
I felt the urge to run
To hide and to ignore

I stood there blankly
In speechless sweat
Pretending to be occupied
Like nothing was said

"I love you and I mean it"
The words repeated
Slapping me with doubts
And questions never to be answered

I closed my eyes to pray
Begging that it was never uttered
Flashes of memories now revisited
Of ones I swore never to relive

Couldn't smile even politely
My heart racing hoping to escape
Searching for words
To break this awkward silence

No amount of beauty
Brains nor money
Would quell my fear
Or ease my inability to settle

Like a coward I retreated
Never to return
Never to answer
Never to commit